A new journey begins - NOW

As it was before - although I think about getting on and writing in this blog practically everyday, I still don't have that down to a pattern of behavior or a habit yet. Perhaps one day I will - and then again, perhaps not.


Anyway, since I have some time on my hands today - while waiting for a friend to come give me a ride to the airport, I decided why not? Maybe just drop a few lines in here as I begin yet another journey.

In less than 24 hours - I will be standing on the soil of the land of my birth. Quite exciting really. This time - I am going back and not sure if it will be for good or not. Well, it won't be the first time I just up and leave everything I have behind. Though I doubt it will be so this time around. However, it might be the trip where I hope I will be able to come to some final decision on whether I will choose to emigrate to NZ or start the process of going back "home."

I have been going back and forth on this for some time really. Somehow the appeal of staying or living here is no longer as great as it was before I came. It's not so much that I don't like it here. Considering the possibilities - I suppose there are advantages and disadvantages either way. Staying on or moving back. Perhaps it is the person that I am - never being able to set my roots any where and getting restless rather quickly. Perhaps, it is a form of escapism and a flaw. Or one can see it as a positive thing where I feel (or allow myself to be) fluid and allow myself to be as flexible as I can - moving with my heart and where it prompts me to go. Sort of a "go with the flow" thing.  I really don't know - and perhaps I will never know until the end of time (my time that is). And perhaps I don't need to know - but just treasure the opportunities life affords me.

I must say - I am thankful for the past year. In fact, I am thankful for all the years I have been given .. doing, for the most part, what I like.  How many people would have loved the opportunity to be able to up and move to a new land and live there for a year. I've done my year here - and it has given me much experience. I've met many new people and have now more good friends. If nothing else, that would be enough to mark the past year as having been a great year - a great adventure - a great journey.  I am deeply thankful for that.

But my heart is "scattered." In some ways - I want to be there .. and on the other hand, I also want to be here. I think I just have a restless soul. That tells me - I haven't quite reached my goal - of bliss. Well that's obvious, right? If I have indeed reached my goal - wouldn't this life be over? As they say, it ain't over until it's over.

So - today begins a new journey. I am not sure how long I will be away - but I am sure I will experience new things - think new ideas .. and will take it from there.  In some way, that's pretty exciting watching life unfold as I know it should.  I don't know what lies ahead - but I am ready to move on forward. Everyday can be the beginning of a new journey.

Hope to be able to continue this after I reach "home."

Peace,
Sylvester