My journey in this blog, I believe, started around 2005 (if I am not mistaken). Since then there's been numerous stop-and-go moments. I marvel at how some people are able to keep their writing going on a daily basis and for years.
On the one hand, it doesn't seem to be so difficult. Or it shouldn't. Wouldn't this be akin to just any other habitual behavior? We don't stop to think each day if we have to brush our teeth or the many other routine stuff that we do everyday. So why should making this into a habit seem so challenging? I am not sure what the answer to that question may be, but I can tell from my lived experience - it has been challenging.
I want to say perhaps I am not as disciplined as I want to be. But two thoughts will surface to hold me back from fully accepting that. 1) I am aware that it is unproductive (non-beneficial) to label ourselves in negative ways. 2) I am also keenly aware that I can be and have been "disciplined" in many other areas in my life. So why is it so hard for me to do this, and what keeps me from turning this writing into a "habit?" One that, I am deeply convinced will only bring benefit to me.
Perhaps, like many things in life - sometimes it is pointless to spin our wheels trying to answer the question "why." Over-analyzing has not helped. So perhaps it is best to just accept it as it is for whatever reason. But accepting it does not mean not seeking to change or to improve. Accept the reality that it has been challenging, and then continue to strive to do better.
As Lincoln says, "It's not how many times you fall, but how many times you get back up." I am getting back up NOW.
And so it is - Today is a NEW beginning. The latest of the NEWs. After all, the only thing that counts really is the here and NOW. So focusing on this moment, letting of the past - I will commit myself to a New Opportunity for Wellness right NOW. (12th March 2021)
Shalom.
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