Continuing the journey

 My second day - after returning to this "journey." Of course, it's only day 2 - so shouldn't be difficult, right? But let me be very honest: it takes effort.

This is what my mind feels like.

This is my 3rd sitting this morning before I started writing (typing). Each time I sat myself down to do it, my mind goes into a "what should I write?" And the multitude of thoughts that come after that - from: "just write something, anything" to "this needs to be a follow up from yesterday where you talked about the on-and-off, stop-and-go etc." Then there's the part that asks "what is so hard about writing," "why do you want to write? What's your motivation? And to these and so many more questions, there would be a reply.

What's so hard about writing?
One answer is: I bet the reason why it's difficult is because you think you have to write something You don't. If you tell yourself you have to, then you will find it a task you have to overcome. It's not you have to or you should. Rather the "key" is in the feeling/idea that you want to.

Why do you want to write?
Cos it is good for me. Really? Is that it? The truth? And why is it good? Or do you want to write only so that you can publish it? In hopes that people will read and like and respond - like so many people do on FB and other social media platform? Come on. Be honest with yourself. Why? (You can imagine - this exploration alone can go on for hours with internal debating endlessly.) With the "final" conclusion being, if you truly believe it is good for you without even know why it is good - then just write. Care less what anyone would think or say. Whether others will read or not or respond. Just write. Just be. Be free - here and NOW - be who you are. Think this process is just for you and you alone. Do it because you want to.

What's your motivation?
Like the one above - is there a motivation? A reason? Need there be one? If you simply feel a desire to write, then there should be no need to even figure out what the "motivation" is. The motivation is because I desire to write. Knowing you have the desire is perhaps enough. And as Deepak Chopra once said to Oprah, "inherent in having the desire, is the mechanics of having its fulfilment." (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAbQUO9x_8g)

So who cares? Don't think. Be free. Let go and Just Do it.

And so it is - here I am tying away whatever comes to mind. Perhaps the benefit is in the transfering of the debate in my head - the multitude of voices and opinions that continue to challenge and clarify with each other (the many parts of the Self) - externalizing it, putting it down on "paper," may help (1) bring peace to the Mind (by removing all or most of that noise that becomes deafening) and (2) bring greater clarity to what I seek in life.

So, I'll let this flow and see where it leads me. Today's lesson - to go with the flow. Do what you want. Reduce the thinking/analysing and just be. Write spontaneously with little to no need to figure out what is should be the topic or subject matter or content.

My head feels a little lighter now. Thank You.

Shalom