6 May 2015 - Another glorious day - to enjoy and relax

A day of no judging was rather therapeutic.  One wonders if we can sustain this behaviour? And if we could, would this be something good.  As I am pondering these, my small little voice throws me a question - or perhaps more an observation: "Are you over thinking? Analysing? Should we not just go with the flow and enjoy each moment?" Yea yea - perhaps - but I want to go with this. Let my still analytical mind still wonder .. wonder and wonder .. for this is at this NOW still very part of me.  I think the wondering mind is not a "bad" thing - it leads us where we need to go.  It is akin to have a child's mind of ever finding things in awe, isn't iit? As long as one doesn't become obsessed with finding the so called "answer" and there leading to anxiety or worry or depression - I think you will be ok. I will be ok.

So - what did I get out of it (yesterday) - and day of not having to judge.  It felt "liberating" to a great extent.  No need to label things - though this is not absolutely accurate.  Not having to label things and give them meaning or interpretation of "good" and "bad." That, I believe, was the key.  So through the day, I was still able to recognize "It is a HOT day."  But it was not with judgment as in "Gosh it is so hot. I wish it would cool down." Or this is "too hot."  I see what I see and feel what I feel then choose how I wish to respond to it.  If I didn't like the hot - move away from it. If I accepted it, I just continued with it.  The choice is always there - and always ours.

So walking around for hours in the scorching sun was not a problem.  Getting lost too was not an issue.  I didn't have the usual worry of "oh no, how do I find my way back? What if the people around can't help and can't understand me if I were to ask them for direction? Worse yet - what if I get mugged or whatever." The endless thoughts of perils of this and that were noticeably missing yesterday - and that was "liberating."  A lot less weight on my shoulder I felt.  I just went with the moment - and getting "lost" meant seeing things I wasn't expecting to see.  The people on the streets. the movement of the cars and vehicles especially the tuk-tuks, the motorcylces, and the modified motorcycles (and there were lots of these).  The day to day movement of the world around me - normally not my environment - but also got me thinking despite the difference in types of vehicles, isn't this also what is in KL and other cities I have been to? The same seemingly "mindless" (not as a bad thing but rather without thought or automated would be the definition) activities - the moving or rushing from one point to another?

So in non-judgment (or perhaps for now a "decrease" in judging - there is still some amount of "labelling."  Perhaps that too will be of no more use at some point. Perhaps then I will be the wizard) there continues to be the recognizing or observations of things and situations and we label them for communication perhaps? For intellectual processing maybe?  Whatever it is - this part of the process remains in tack. I want to just choose to decrease or minimize or eliminate altogether the judgment of what is "good" or "bad," what is "normal" or "abnormal," what is "right" or "wrong," even what is "healthy" and "unhealthy" (which is what I was thinking when I sat down to write this - i.e., not right or wrong but what is healthy or unhealthy - adaptive or maladaptive).  Perhaps for now, I want to just look at every moment to determine if the thoughts, the feelings, the whatever - if they support what I want to move towards.  And if they do, I can choose to eliminate them or to walk away from there or remove myself from the environment etc.  But I need not classify them as neither good nor bad.  If this makes sense at all.

So anyway - that's is what I got yesterday.  My inner voice seems silenced at the moment - so I suppose this is some how resonating with my inner being/energy :)

Boy, it is hot here.  I think I will go turn on the fan. :)

I just love the color in this photo, so I added it in for flavour. :)