A bump along the journey

Why do we hit bumps along life's journey?  I have no idea - but certainly seems like I've hit one of those again.

Apparently a day of rest yesterday was insufficient.  I have spent the whole of today, practically, in bed - thinking perhaps the best way to recover is to just sleep and stay in bed.  And so I did.  I feel so drained and without energy. I don't feel depressed - and there would be no reason to feel depressed.  So what is this funk I've hit? I am still wondering.

One of the silver lining in the dark cloud, for me, is the realization that I was in great health and spirit while I was away. The entire period.  No stomach ache, no headache, no acid reflux or whatever.  Everything was super ok.

Yet, it all changed the minute my plane touched down in KL last Thursday night.  Wow.  It is already Monday evening now.  5 night since I got back - and every day has been a "battle."  Against what, I do not know.  But a battle to regain my strength?  From having headaches to acid reflux to now a bout of coughing non-stop.  What a pain.  I must admit it is primarily the coughing I suppose that is so draining of energy.  None of the air-conditioning in the house seem to be able to produce enough cold air - and it feels hot everywhere.

I understand that our bodies are our allies and they reveal things to us about our environment or our system that is not working.  So what exactly is the message from my body? It is telling me that something is not "right" or align with what I want - something is not conducive to my wellbeing - so what is it?  Unfortunately, I haven't figured it out.

Perhaps one more night of solitude would do me good.  Let's keep my mind still for one more night. Perhaps it will all be clear by tomorrow.  And even if there is no explanation - perhaps it will all just be better.  If it is going to be better tomorrow, then there is nothing to worry about now.  And if it is not going to be better tomorrow, worrying now is not going to change that anyway.  So, just let it be - and embrace this moment in silence.

Peace out.