Yesterday the 7th of January 2016 was quite an
unusual day to say the least. Gave me a “high”
that lasted all the way to when I fell asleep.
It was simply a magnificent day.
I won’t list out the full detail of the whole day here –
what I would like to do is just put down snippets of what went on that led to
that “high.”
Starting in the morning when I uploaded my entry On
Relationships – A Follow Up. As I was
sharing with my sister later in the day – and as I alluded to in that blog
entry – I was feeling great having received “feedback” or complaints (doesn’t
matter what you call them – cos it all depends on how you take them – how you
interpret them) to the three earlier blog entries (all about
Relationships). I know it may seem to
many as being weird that I was happy with those private comments – but I truly
was. I guess, it is just the idea that
what I was saying was reaching others and having some kind of impact on
them. Whether the impact or result is
negative or positive is really beyond my control and is determined by each
individual who reads what I write. So I must not place any attachment to any
particular outcome. My desire is just to
let my heart speak and let those meaning go where they must and bring about the
impact that they will (or no impact at all).
And so it was, despite the comments being in what others may seem
negative because they generally did not agree with what I had to share .. it
was still “all good.”
As I shared this with my sister, I felt like there was
another “me” who kinda stepped back and observed the situation and said “hmm. You
do not feel upset and tense. Are you sure this is cool with you? Check again
your feelings. What are you really feeling?”
So after talking with her, I stopped everything else and
just pondered a while examing myself.
How do I feel? Is there any discomfort anywhere? Am I feeling good? And to my amusement – I was actually feeling
good. No discomfort whatsoever. No tension in any part of my body. No
itchiness. Nothing uncomfortable – but an overall feeling of just “good.”
A dialogue then started in my head. “But don’t you want to
have a positive impact on others? Don’t you want to bring peace and happiness
to others? Isn’t this having an opposite effect?” And the other voice inside of me responded
very gently and very calmly – “I am already having an impact. The private
messages are proof that people are reading and ‘feeling” something from their
reading. There is no positive or negative feeling. Is the resulting
transformation that is more ‘positive’ and/or ‘negative.’ And that outcome or eventuality is not for me
to be concerned with since it is not my intent to make others this way or that
way. They have to make choices for
themselves.”
And then I am reminded of a story that I read a long time
ago – a story I have repeated in many of the talks and sessions I have
given. It is about a man who was asked
by God to push on a rock. If you search the internet, you will surely find a
couple of versions of this story. Some call it PUSH (which stands for Pray
Until Something Happens) or The Rock. I don’t know which is the original – but I
guess that doesn’t really matter. The
moral of the story is what’s important.
So, anyway – I have included below – The Rock (by Mike O’Melia) in case
you have never come across this story.
But back to my experience and my thoughts – it is not my
purpose to “move the rock.” That is
between God and the individual reader.
All I seek to do is to simply share my point of view – my thoughts – my feelings. And that’s all I will do.
So, I was feeling good about the fact that there were people
reading and maybe even reflecting on what I had shared. And soon thereafter, I had a message (just an
ordinary message from a friend on my Whatsapp).
As we chatted, he shared with me what he was going through at the moment
– and how he had made some major decisions in his life giving up the
possibility of a huge amount of money to follow his heart – his “calling.” And
I returned said to him that that sounded like something I had come across in
Wayne Dyer’s book recently where he too made some choices sometimes foregoing
what seemed like a good financial opportunity to follow the music in his
heart. I had wondered out loud if I
would be able to similarly do this – although I am cognizant of the fact that I
had, at least on one occasion, in the past where I had refused to compromise my
position on a training program I was conducting with a huge corporate
client. I knew then that if I did not
change as they wanted, it would likely result in the termination of our
agreement. I stood my ground because I
believe principally I would be doing the right thing – and I would not
compromise the “message” I needed to impart for the sake of money. Still, I wondered out loud if I could do like
this friend of mine or like Dr. Wayne Dyer – and further expressed the sporadic
“insecurity” that would arise as I have still been unable to find employment.
My friend’s response:
“Your job is on the way. You need to take
time to settle down first. And I mean settle down in totality - body, mind and
soul. Then the next phase will explode with color and all its might for you to
touch lives. 😎”
When I
thanked him for his words of encouragement, his response:
“The words are not mine. Came from the Universe.” How comforting to have a reminder from the
Universe – from God – that He is watching and He will not lead me astray.
Things will happen in the exact moment when they are to happen. He is always in control.
Later in
the day, another message from another friend via Whatsapp. Casual conversation from
one thing to another led to us talking about a possible “job” although it is in
to be in Malaysia. She was thinking of
introducing me to come companies who may be in need for some training to help
their employees improve on their services. I expressed that I would be
interested in looking into this but would not want to have a full time job back
in Malaysia. However, I do believe it is
possible to make regular trips back to Malaysia to do specific trainings spread
out throughout the year. I was feeling excited about this, and we agreed to
further explore this. Is this yet
another “synchronicity” in action?
We
talked on further and I was asked, as I have been many other times by many
other people, why is it that I want to be in NZ? And as I’ve answered many time
before – I really don’t have one specific answer. I don’t really know except that it “feels
right.” It’s like a calling. Perhaps not
“like” a calling, but it IS actually a calling. A knowing of sort. This is the
right place to be right this moment.
Brings to mind too another question from another friend just a day or
two earlier as to whether I will still be here in 2018 when he plans to
visit. My answer to that question was,
again, I really don’t know. We can never be certain from one day to another
where we will be or what we will be called to do. Each day is a present, and
that is why it is so important to be thankful for each day given to us and to
live it to the fullest following our heart, our passion, our dharma. And even if I were to still be alive in 2018 –
who knows what the “calling” would be then? That I must always be prepared to
Let Go, and Let God do His/Her bidding – directing me to follow that inner
voice.
This
friend then proceeded to ask me, “How do you know
is God talking to u but not your own will?” My answer, without
thinking, “Because
when we follow our own will it is filled with anxiety and fear and stress. But
when you follow God's calling - there is this sense of peace. Sure every now
and then fear slips in. And worries and anxieties. But then God takes over
again when you let go and Let Him. Then there is calm again. Is finding you
true purpose. Your true calling. And trusting that.”
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| This is the message my friend received the night before. |
There
was a pause following that, and then she returned with a “Do u know that God use u to speak to me too? 😃 Let go n Let him. Is what I
want to hear for second time. N u just said it 😪😪”
She related to me
that while she was dealing with a personal issue the night before, she came
across a “message” suggesting to her to Let
Go and Let God Work. And when she received that message, “I pray to god Let go n let him. Then I didn’t believe n
prayed to god to show me another time. Here today u just use the same word Let
go n let him. I guess I got the confirmation already.” Isn’t this just amazing? Many will simply put
this off to “coincidences.” But for me, I believe. Another example of “synchronicity”
in action.
I can't describe the sense of peace I felt inside just that moment. And while she thanked me for bringing the
message to her, I thanked her too for bringing to me her message .. a message
from God/Universe to me to trust! So comforting,
so reassuring. That we can and are
messengers of the Divine. When we allow ourselves to be. To Let Go and Let Him
work. It was like I was being showed –
my daily prayer, my request following the Prayers of Francis of Assisi (some
call it the Prayer of Peace) to let me be an instrument – an instrument of
Peace. That I may be allowed to be that instrument to bring peace, joy,
understanding etc etc to those I encounter.
That’s all I want to be – for each day that I am given – to be able to
make a difference – to be able to share with another the Joy of Living ..
Living with a purpose. Thank you for the opportunity. And I guess that too is the reason why I
write in my blog – in hope, in faith that it will reach another just when the
time is right to bring some sense of meaning into their lives. I feel so
BLESSED.
And so –
in conclusion for this day – if I can tie it back to the start of this blog
entry today – and that is why I feel at peace when I received those “complaints”
and/or feedback from readers. It is because I know at some level I have been
allowed into their hearts, into their awareness, into their consciousness. And
whatever the impact, like the Rock – it is not my purpose to move the Rock but
to only PUSH and the rest I leave in the Hands of the Divine.
Thank
you for your reading – and thank you for letting me be a part of your life even
if it is only for a day.
Note: Because this is rather lengthy today, I will upload in another entry to story about the Rock as well as the Prayer of Francis Assisi separately.
Namaste,
Syl
Syl
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